I haven't felt so alive in years
The sun is shining down on me
My eyes are welling up with tears
Tears of joy, tears of ecstasyEmotions, I once kept concealed
Now flow freely like a river
Life's great mysteries revealed
Love's great promises deliveredI hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear, so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out thereTry to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life, I want to dieThe landscape rises to meet my feet
The sky descends to fill my arms
For once I finally feel complete
For once I know I can't be harmedAll I know is light and love
I feel that I could live forever
While others' troubles seem to grow
I have no problems whatsoeverI hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear, so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out thereTry to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life, I want to dieThe epiphany that came to fall
Finally helped me reconcile
What I felt wasn't joy at all
All this time it was just denialI hate my life, I want to die
I was just pretending all this time
A mask I wear, so I don't bare
My soul to the cold, harsh world out thereTry to prevail but only fail
Each time on a grander and grander scale
My life is worthless and so am I
I hate my life, I want to die
Songwriters
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