I spent too much time erasing, not enough time changing
Blurring the lines between sick and selfish
Hoping I can grab on for just a second
But I've learned to take what I can get
And use the parts that makes sense
And relent only when I meet my own death
And find a pace I can circumvent
When was truth less about proving a point and just proving someone wrong
All along I'll rest my aching joints to my own broken hope and swan song
But maybe I'm over worked because I like breaking the healing process as a comfort when I'm aching
With this new perspective I'm finally takingI made this bed and I will sleep in it
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames of hell
I made this bed and I will sleep in it
Even if our honesty is building peace into a bed of nails
Death is not a choice and love should not be either
I'll endure the pain if our hearts endure the weather
The only pain worse than killing with force is killing with neglect I guess
And now I know that our complacent love is completely deadI will complicate this love just to feel something
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that I realized you are not coming back
I will complicate this love just to feel something
And I'm sorry if it's clouded all the facts
The rhythm of my heartbeat change in the moment that I conceptualize the words I maskedI made this bed and I will sleep in it
The comfort of your warm sheets will bring me to the further flames
I would give up all I have just to go back home
I dropped the breadcrumbs
I hope you know I hate being alone
You used to make my mind clear
Now your absence does instead
I heard your dog barking in the backyard
He only does that when you're home
And I just hope you understand
I never meant to grow apart
But I knew at some point I had to grow
I guess I could've picked a better time to learn patience
But now I'm learning that I am becoming the one who broke my heart
I was a creature of habit but with no real intentions
I conformed to what I understood to be happiness
Or undiagnosed and self medicated approach to getting lost in each other's contemptment lead to a misconception of your beauty
And I still can't believe that I lied to you
Especially because when I said it
I thought I was telling the truth
I thought I was strong enough to carry you
But now my mind is clear
And I hope you hear this
I love you
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