Dead Ends

Shivering

I am looking in at

People that I call my friendsJust a sillhouette

With a cigarette

And no idea who I amThere were songs in these eyes

But now theyre gone

If only I had held the light inFlashing teeth

They are smiling

So happy to burn through their timeAnd I dont know when

But I lost the will to savor mineNow theyre all

Stumbling to some other house

Though Ive tried I cant find any interest nowIt takes

The guilt of just a small mistake

To puncture the joy

So its poisoned by doubtI just wanted to face the expanse

But those dead ends have come to haunt me

I had tried to understand

How I should operate this body

And I was sure, but I was wrong

If only I had held the light in

The darkness would be gone