I remember thinking, even when I’s just a child
That my eyes seemed darker and my heart was cold and wild
I looked to my brother and saw what I lack
It cuts me to the bone like the battle’s fiery flak
My gift just won’t do
You want what he’s got don’t you
I can see it in your eyes
Fear where love should reside
But black is the day
When I sent to the grave
The light of my family name
I love my father as much as I can
I hate my mother for the darkness she passed down
When I can’t sleep I walk into town
Where I see an evil circus with shadows for clowns
People come undone before me like poorly bound books
Unwrapping under my gaze and fraying while I look
I press them and test them and use them for laughs
But I don’t find it funny though it helps the time pass
My gift just won’t do
You want what he’s got don’t you
I can see it in your eyes
Fear where love should reside
But black is the day
When I sent to the grave
The light of my family name
When silence creeps in liquid darkness fills my head
And jealous thoughts come rapid fire filling my stomach with lead
I drive you down to your knees to show myself I’m a man
But I just broke your spirit and I’ve got your blood on my hands
I feel a lot of regret but not quite enough
After giving all I knew to give I still got treated so rough
My heart keeps on beating long after memories fade
I still don’t like to see myself it reminds me of your grave
Brother stand beside me
Brother forgive my darkest deed
Father am I destined to lose
Father can’t I choose
I’ve been haunted by the notion that we’re all on some set track
Forced and trapped in our bodies like some twisted heart attack
But knowing is not forcing me to react
And the pathway is not hidden and love is not abstract
---
Lyrics submitted by D Goans.