I Don't Like Who I Was Then

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Tossed around like sea glass

And you rounded out my edges

I'll feel better when the headaches go away

I've got a scar across my forehead

Turning purple in the cold

From a night at Shore Memorial

I was sixteen and afraid, turned away

I'm working babyface

Out of Mid-South in the eighties

I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape[Chorus]

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enoughHidden in the tall grass

In the naked light of day

Put my past self in the ground

I've been dancing on the grave

I'm not the person that I was then

I'm tearing him away

I was bitter, I was careless

I was nineteen and afraidBut you deserve more from me

Don't know why I'd say those things

But you deserve more from me

And I'm trying every day[Chorus]

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enoughLet me walk into circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the baby teeth I buried

You were the sound of distant carsLet me walk into circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the banner that says no one

That I tattooed across my heartLet me walk into circles

You were a shot in the dark

You scattered like ashes across every song that I write

You where the light pollution starts[Chorus]

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks

I want to run until my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

Enough is enough