In Black

i inhale take it in the hate the anger

it clouds my thinking it pulls me under

further further my eyes lose sight

my ears grow deaf my mouth is gagged

i exhale get rid of confusion

returning my focus i try to keep my grip

closer closer lights come on

to kill the black festering inside

i inhale i choke i exhale i choke

i crawl you kick i choke on hope

if i, swallow everything that you give

to me i would vomit on this world

i see your delight in my mistakes

using my shortcomings to your full advantage

you're full i'm empty the story old and stale

a thousand times over torn to laugh

as i sit crying whining in selfishness