It Hurts Until It Doesn't

I felt alive for a little while

But when I died

I had the time to notice

I was crushed by the weight of my own ego

But never honest enough to say itI felt your love for a little while

But never had the guts

To give myself up

I said that I could be just what you wanted

As if I could ever keep a promiseYou have eyes in every room

But you won't see me walk away

Once I was

More than just a song to play

On your haunted tape

I don't want to be awayCould have sworn

I heard you laughing in the doorway

I don't like myself when I'm awake