I don't want to take another breathe
Of this air which prolongs my death
I don't want to take another step
In a direction that's plagued by regret
It seems like nothing in my life ever goes how I planned it
And sometimes it feels like there's too much stress to manage
It's been a while since I could say that I peacefully slept
The thoughts that are in my head, make me hate going to bed
But wait I take that back, I don't sleep in a bed at all
It's been almost a year since I had a home or a job
For a while I was paying bills by just making this music
But that's why success is special, because it's so easy to lose it
I lost everything I had, I won't pretend like I still got that shit
All I have left are my fans and all my empty promises
I don't answer my phone, so don't try fucking calling it
I think I'm close to quitting despite how much I've fought that shit
Every day's another battle, my opponent is myself
It's either spend time recording or focus on my mental health
I feel another person every single minute
That's why I'm starting to accept the fact that I'm schizophrenic
I was diagnosed a while back, my parents don't believe it
Told by countless doctors, but they're still too blind to see it
On the bright side I stopped crying from the heartbreak I went thru
These bitches say I love you, but I know that it's not true
Teachers told me stay in school so you can have a good life
I never listened to them because I had the fame on my mind
They told me when I dropped out that I'd always have a shit life
At the time I thought I'd get by, I'm thinking now that they were right
All these kids online say that I am an inspiration
They say they wanna be just like me, I tell them they're mistaken
Because nobody wants to live a life that's played by regret
I talk about killing myself, but I still haven't found the courage yet
Maybe one day I'll say fuck it, and then pull the trigger
If I live or die, nothing changes, what's the difference?
I just know that when I die, I'll finally rest in peace
So Please don't waste your time crying or remembering me
I don't want to take another breathe
Of this air which prolongs my death
I don't want to take another step
In a direction that's plagued by regret
Lyrics Submitted by River Gamen