Sometimes I sit at home and wonder
How it be if he had loved me truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing it never happens for me
And so I go around and just pretend love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh
And they won't see that you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep, lord know its killing meSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
'Cuz I'm dying inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face on my face singing, la la la, la la, la, la, la, la la,
la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laSometimes I sit at home by the phone
Hopin' he might call me but he don't call me
But then I realize dreams come true aren't for girls
Like me not like me, and
So I go around with my head up
Like it ain't nothing and when
The boys around with all my friends
I'm into other things 'cuz you
Never let them see you sweat don't want them
To think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing meSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
'Cuz I'm dying inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face on my face ohIts not easy thing to do
Sometimes its hard to face the truth
Its not the life that I would choose
But what else can I do if he don't love me no
If he don't want me I'm not about to sit around
Let myself goSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
'Cuz I'm dying inside with my pride and a smile on my
Face on my face singing
La, la, la
La, la, la
La, la, la
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