Sometimes I sit at home and wonder
How it'd be if he had loved me
Truly loved me, yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
It never happens for me
And so I go around and just pretend
Love is not for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh
And they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord know its killing meSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
'Cuz I'm dying inside with my pride
And a smile on my face
On my face singing
La la la, la la, la, la, la, la la,
la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laSometimes I sit at home by the phone
Hopin' he might call me but he don't call me
But then I realize dreams come true aren't for girls
Like me not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't nothing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I'm into other things
Cuz you never let them see you sweat
Don't want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows its killing meSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
But I'm dying inside with my pride
And a smile on my face
On my face
OohIt's not easy thing to do
Sometimes its hard to face the truth
It's not the life that I would choose
But what else can I do if he don't love me, no
If he don't want me
I'm not about to sit around
Let myself goSo I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is ok
I'm laughing 'cuz no one
Knows the joke is on me
But I'm dying inside with my pride
And a smile on my face
On my face singing
La la la, la la, la, la, la, la la,
la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laI keep singing la, la