This Time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake

Waiting for my thoughts to fade

The flickering of all of my mistakes

And as the light starts creeping in

I slowly feel the day I'm missing

But I won't even know where to begin

Do I push too hard? I fall too fast

A moment never seems to last

Will I stop long enough to know?

'Cause everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt I cry

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away this time

The white circle in my head

It weighs so heavy on my chest

And I'm crushed by your expectation

I only want to do some good

Too dumb to know if I could

And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

Do I go too far, not far enough

Why can't I keep my big mouth shut

And do you lead the life that we should?

And everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt I cry

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away this time

Did I say too much again?

I'm just a girl in a panic

If I tell you my truth, am I getting through?

It just seems I should confess

And who am I to pretend?

This is more than I can carry

And everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt I cry

I hold my head up high

I know I'll be alright this time

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away this time

This time, this time

This time, this time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake

Waiting for my thoughts to fade

And in times like this I see your face