A Million Reasons Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
When the shadows washed away
I was painting larger ones
Larger than the canvases
The canvases I can't believeAnd I can't understand when things turned gray
I'm not who I was in the morning
And there's a million reasons that I'd like you to stay
Tried to utter the words while you're fallingI run out the bedroom
Cause I can't really breathe
A recurrent fear of being tied down
And I would like to blame it on the artist in me

But there's no one there, so that's bullshitI'm going through girls
And pushing through crowds
And she knows I'm looking for her
And I'm going through hell
Through the darkest sides of myself
I only want what I can't haveRun ahead
Don't wait up
Just run ahead
Don't wait up cause I'll follow you there
Follow you there
I'll follow you there
Follow the ocean
Follow you there
Follow the ocean
The road's not far wayI only want
I only want her today
I only want what I can't have
I only, I only want her today
I only want what I can't have