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Joe Budden

Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse, or was it tour life?<br /> Maybe it wouldn't had started at all if I had your life<br /> Maybe it was needed or was I thinking immorally<br /> If I wasn't myself could I say I gave the fans All of Me?<br /> Can't decide if I'm more ashamed of what they saw of me<br /> Than I am of ignoring all the lessons that was taught to me<br /> Headed up field but couldn't dodge the last tackler<br /> How could a forward thinker move so ass backwards?<br /> How could a dude with no regrets at all, willing to bet it all<br /> Not realize that quicker demise, how could I neglect it all?<br /> I'm so seasonal, some of y'all knew I'd spring back<br /> With a heart this cold, how'd y'all think I'd be receptive to fall<br /> I'm plenty comfortable when danger's around<br /> And even more so when strangers around<br /> And the bigger picture is sicker, don't know my triggers or know the alarm it forces<br /> Don't know a nigga, don't know my bouts with drugs and liquor or the harm it causes<br /> Life or death? I tried to lynch myself<br /> Thought I could keep it all a secret, I convinced myself<br /> But really, the folk that loved me, they could tell I was locin'<br /> I couldn't see him, cry me a river cause it fell in the ocean<br /> Numb to my words now, maybe felt I was open<br /> I cut so many people loose, do I need help with devotion?<br /> That's just some of the things I ask my Lord and Savior<br /> And when He calls for me, will He have done us all a favor?How did I make it here?<br /> Who are y'all?<br /> I feel so lost<br /> Now I'm not seeing it clear<br /> Is it my fault?<br /> It's all in my headI'm looking around like this can't be happening<br /> Round of applause for the angry rappers<br /> Lord, my girl cried me a flood than me a river<br /> That's love, depending on me when I'm a dependent on liquor<br /> I'm up in the shoe store, she got no love to show<br /> You ever look at a bitch you was fucking behind your bitch back<br /> Like fuck I was fucking you for?<br /> I'm an artist so I'm intelligent<br /> I would tell you to do some soul searching<br /> But it's hanging up in my closet with your skeleton<br /> It's gotta be a God's work, even a diamond gotta be polished first<br /> A quarter's on the loose and I ain't been out here getting my dollars' worth<br /> I had to remove the goggles first<br /> To see through the sipping Patrón and fifty phoners for I need to go get me a kidney donor<br /> Guru, Nate Dogg, go ahead blink a eye<br /> The doctor told me you close, go 'head drink and die<br /> Buried under the stone where the Patrón fifth sits by<br /> That reads "Here lies somebody who never wanted to be this guy"How did I make it here?<br /> Who are y'all?<br /> I feel so lost<br /> Now I'm not seeing it clear<br /> Is it my fault? (It go)<br /> It's all in my head (look)They say knowledge is power, great 'cause every day I learn<br /> As of late been having revelations bout this hate term<br /> Hate the way they judged me, till I got the case adjourned<br /> Hated the belly of the beast till I became its tapeworm<br /> When I said I'd stop getting high, tried to say it stern<br /> Though I'm the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burn<br /> They say my brain is off, I say how can it be?<br /> If I'm out my mind, how can I be in-sanity?<br /> The people used to say that I was scared of progress<br /> They don't know how hard a nigga tried to advance<br /> But I don't know who's more to blame, is it them for really not knowing me<br /> Or is it me for never really giving them a chance?<br /> Get too close, be too big of a threat<br /> Now I spend little to no time, thinking why I ain't get rid of you yet<br /> Gotta recognize my maturity, gotta see I'm grown<br /> Let all my skeletons out the closet, just so I'd never be alone<br /> Since I got trust issues I won't discuss with you<br /> Besides God tell me who the fuck's supposed to save you<br /> Pop won't have a man to man, was gone half my life so<br /> Somewhere in his head probably feel it ain't his place to<br /> Plus more people will see me soon, I mean I'll be on national TV soon<br /> So when I ask if people I have around are a cancer for me<br /> That's four million more that might be able to answer for me, JoeyHow did I make it here?<br /> Who are y'all?<br /> I feel so lost<br /> Now I'm not seeing it clear<br /> Is it my fault?<br /> It's all in my head<br /> <br /> Songwriters<br /> MCCORMICK, CARL E. / BUDDEN, JOSEPH ANTHONY / HONEYCUTT, BRIAN / MONTGOMERY, RYAN D.Published by<br /> Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing GroupLyrics provided by TANCODEhttps://damnlyrics.com/" readonly=""/>