Blackout Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
I just drove under the blinking sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behindI stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say
I know this hurts but it's time to breakIn two pieces, two fault line's not secure
I'll burn a bridge if needed to get back to herI feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we didAt least I'm feeling more alive

But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
Before I find happinessI make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleepThere are times, there are times I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on, holding on to the slack of rope
But that's the whiskey talking, soI hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me 'cause I thought I'd be fine?
Now I'm slurring every single lineI feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we didAt least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
I've got to move on before I can find happinessThis isn't fair, nobody taught me how to let go?
Just be here now and you'll be set free from sorrow
But at this time I don't see clearly how will I know
What is the point, what is the meaning? How to let go?I'm struggling, I blackout so I can dream
But I still see you sneaking through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just wanna drown you out with southern poisonIf I had a drink for every goddamn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleepIf I had a shot for every goddamn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some sleepSleep, sleep
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
Then at least I'd get some sleep