Blackout Lyrics

I just drove under the blinking sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind
I stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say
I know this hurts but it's time to break
In two pieces, two fault line's not secure
I'll burn a bridge if needed to get back to her
I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
Before I find happiness
I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain instead of sturdy trees

I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleep
There are times, there are times I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on, holding on to the slack of rope
But that's the whiskey talking, so
I hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me 'cause I thought I'd be fine?
Now I'm slurring every single line
I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did
At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
I've got to move on before I can find happiness
This isn't fair, nobody taught me how to let go?
Just be here now and you'll be set free from sorrow
But at this time I don't see clearly how will I know
What is the point, what is the meaning? How to let go?
I'm struggling, I blackout so I can dream
But I still see you sneaking through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just wanna drown you out with southern poison
If I had a drink for every goddamn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep
If I had a shot for every goddamn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
Then at least I'd get some sleep