By Myself Lyrics

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?Because I cant hold on when Im stretched so thin
I make the right moves but Im lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt againBy myself, I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myselfI cant hold on
(To what I want when Im stretched so thin)
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking inIf I turn my back Im defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then theyll
Take from me til everything is goneIf I let them go Ill be outdone
But if I try to catch them Ill be outrun
If Im killed by the questions like a cancer
Then Ill be buried in the silence of the answerBy myself, I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myself
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I cant rely on myselfI cant hold on
(To what I want when Im stretched so thin)
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking inHow do you think, Ive lost so much?
Im so afraid, Im out of touch
How do you expect, I will know what to do?
When all I know is what you tell me toDont you know, I cant tell you how to make it go?
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outsideDont you know, I cant tell you how to make it go?
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outsideI cant hold on
(To what I want when Im stretched so thin)
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking inI cant hold on
(To what I want when Im stretched so thin)
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of failure sinking