Dead Ends Lyrics

Shivering
I am looking in at
People that I call my friendsJust a sillhouette
With a cigarette
And no idea who I amThere were songs in these eyes
But now theyre gone
If only I had held the light inFlashing teeth
They are smiling
So happy to burn through their timeAnd I dont know when
But I lost the will to savor mineNow theyre all
Stumbling to some other house
Though Ive tried I cant find any interest nowIt takes
The guilt of just a small mistake
To puncture the joy
So its poisoned by doubtI just wanted to face the expanse
But those dead ends have come to haunt me
I had tried to understand
How I should operate this body

And I was sure, but I was wrong
If only I had held the light in
The darkness would be gone