Every Night Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
I'm not feeling human anymore
Half connected all the time
Each night I document the things I've done
The pointless points I've made for stupid reasonsEvery night I'm always the same
You're pounding on my brain
Tonight and every night
I lie down clenching up my teeth
Trying to fall asleepI've sat and smoked a billion cigarettes
And wished to hell that you were here
My stained and calloused fingers hold a pen

Scratching apologies to you too late too littleEvery night I pay off my debts
Trust me I don't forget
Tonight and every night
I will analyze everything
And make myself count the ways
I fucked up today