Existing In A Crisis (evelyn) Lyrics

I'm so tired of the stupid games you play
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face?
Would you promise not to get out of the way?If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack I'll put a knife against your throat
And cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
When you made me do the things I did at night when I got homeBut I thought you'd change
Realize that today, todayEvelyn, I know you lied I'd tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave here now
Beggin' you to stay away from meI know you lied, but I'll tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave me now
Beggin' you to die painfully
So painfullySo this brings us to the backup of my plan
Maybe I'll just have to strangle you with my bare hands
Then you'll have to adhere to my demands
And occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you areBut I thought they'd change

And things just stay the same, the sameEvelyn, I know you lied but I'd tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave here now
Beggin' you to stay away from meI know you lied, but I'll tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave me now
Beggin' you to dieSometimes content leads, leads to stagnance
And stagnance leads to contempt
Contempt leads to the presentSometimes content leads, leads to stagnance
And stagnance leads to contempt
Contempt leads to the presentBut I thought you'd change
And things just stay the same, the sameEvelyn, I know you lied but I'll tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave here now
Beggin' you to stay away from meI know you lied, but I'd tell you that
I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave me now
Beggin' you to dieEvelyn, I know you lied
But I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave here now
Beggin' you to stay away from meI know you lied
But I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin' you to leave here now
Beggin' you to stay away from me