I Took a Long Hard Look Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
I took a long hard look
At the heroes of my youth.
And their antics on the page there on
Can no longer sustain me
Ever since I was a boy
They brought me joy
But the shackles of the way I was
Can no longer contain meIt was exciting
And enlightening
Reverberating through my dreams

Goodbye to reality
And set a course for wayward schemes.Now I can't sing
I can't feel
I don't know what is real.
I was travelling through the past for years
Tell me what's my destination
Now the past is gone
I don't even have a song
We've not sung before
To a closing door
Tell me what's my situation?I saw the film,
I lived the book
I got the haircut
That's all it took
But now I know it's going to take
A little more now I'm awakeI took along hard look
Now I'm waiting for the phone to ring
I glance at the inbox
Is there any tantalising mail there in
There was lust in my restless heart
But now I know what true love means
Goodbye to reality
And set sail for dreamsy