Merrick Sympathiser Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
It starts right now
Stake my claim for the throne of incompetence
Come last at everything - every time
I have failed at all I have attempted
Childhood goals tipped and up-endedAnd you just look at me and say I fucking told you so
You're not the king of me I'm the king of meSo why do I still beg for your attention
My name remains a filthy word unfit for you to mention
I'm fucking shit, I'm really sick
I cannot cope, I don't think I can put up with itHere we go again - headlong into another scene
I put hands over my eyes and try to hide

It never changes, I've never lived up to your expectations
I am the cancer in your life - I am a burdenAnd all the times I tried my best, it's never good enough
Cause every time I fail the tests - I'm just not good enough
Too fucking stupid, too fucking dull
I can never live up to what you want from me
I've only just begun to find my feet
And you kick them right out from under meI can't compete, this isn't fair I'm the circle that cannot fit the square
Lying awake, cannot sleep
Play over in my mind all that you've done to me
I smile outside - inside I'm screaming
And silently - in my mind I'll always be your enemy I am your enemy