Not That Beautiful Lyrics

I pray and I run from the past
I pick up the phone just to find I’m alone
It’s wearing me out and the weight of my sins
Killed the faith that I have so it’s time I begin
Back to the start just to see how it feels
I was the one who had thought you could heal
Now that it’s over it’s time to move on
Because I was the righteous and you are the wrong
Every time I try to run and hide
I feel you're haunting me
I’m addicted to the games that you play
You make me feel so pitiful
Like you’re so beautiful
Your heart is beating me to death everyday
But I am not that pitiful
You’re not that beautiful
I suffer inside just to feel I’m alive
I bury the truth 'cause I know it’s a lie

I never said all the things I should say
Because you were the master and I was a slave
If I could find me a drug to forget you
I’d overdose on the day that I met you
Kill all the drama it’s time to move on
Because I am the righteous and you are the wrong
Every time I try to run and hide
I feel you're haunting me
I’m addicted to the games that you play
You make me feel so pitiful
Like you’re so beautiful
Your heart is beating me to death everyday
But I am not that pitiful
You’re not that beautiful
I’m not that pitiful
You’re not so beautiful
Every time I look into your eyes
I see a demon in disguise
You fucking make me sick
You are the one that I despise
You take me and break me
You feed me lies
And all that you gave me in return was my demise
So maybe I’m just crazy for believing this shit
But goddamn I can’t believe I’m fucking dealing with this
It’s like a nightmare and I can’t wake up
I just can’t wake up
I’m addicted to the games that you play
You make me feel so pitiful
Like you’re so beautiful
Your heart is beating me to death everyday
But I am not that pitiful
You’re not that beautiful
I’m not that pitiful
You’re not so beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful