Only When I Laugh Lyrics

So, it's finally over
Had to happen, but no big deal.
After all of that, off again and on
What else is new?Well, I say, will you catch me crying? Not this kid
Will I soon forget you? I just did
Does it really hurt me? Only when I laughIs my heart finally numb yet?
Yeah, I don't think I feel one thing
After too long of running cold and hot
And cold, you end up blueSo, I'll just change things on my mailbox, suits me fine
And since you've gone on your way, I'll go mine
Does it really hurt me? Only when I laughEvery time I fell in love
I never fell completely
The joke is, I was saving something
For the person that I thought was youWell, I guess I was dreaming
Glad the fantasy's dead and gone
And if my mind keeps running back and forth
And back and forth don't take that as a clueIt was a minor operation, I pulled through
Opened up my life and took out you

My only scar's a heart that's neatly torn in half
Does it really hurt me? Only when I laugh