Should Have Known Better Lyrics

I should have known better
To see what I could see
My black shroud
Holding down my feelings
A pillar for my enemiesI should have wrote a letter
And grieve what I happen to grieve
My black shroud
I never trust my feelings
I waited for the remedyWhen I was three, three maybe four
She left us at that video store
Be my rest, be my fantasy
Be my rest, be my fantasyI'm light as a feather
I'm bright as the Oregon breeze
My black shroud
Frightened by my feelings
I only wanna be a reliefNo, I'm not a go-getter
The demon had a spell on me
My black shroud

Captain of my feelings
The only thing I wanna believeWhen I was three, and free to explore
I saw her face on the back of the door
Be my rest, be my fantasy
Be my rest, be my fantasyI should have known better
Nothing can be changed
The past is still the past
The bridge to nowhere
I should have wrote a letter
Explaining what I feel, that empty feelingDon't back down, concentrate on seeing
The breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illuminationDon't back down, there is nothing left
The breakers in the bar, no reason to live
I'm a fool in the fetter
Rose of Aaron's beard, where you can reach meDon't back down, nothing can be changed
Cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illumination