[Chorus]
I'm just getting done waiting for the sickness to take me away
And I'll fight it, I don't need no more, when I already got it
[Verse 1]
Already dead inside I commit suicide
Every night when I break a new seal
I run away from myself every chance that I get
Cuz it's easy, It's too hard to heal
Never accepted by anyone ever
But f*ck all them people and f*ck how they feel
Exhausted I'm tired, don't wanna keep going
I flirt with the Percocet, Xanax and steel
[Pre-Chorus]
I make thе room spin
By now, I'm used to it's sickening movemеnt
It's an illusion
It's a reminder that my time is looming
Hardly a human
I'm just a vessel, the chemicals use me
It's so confusing
Did I choose them? I don't know, did they choose me?
[Chorus]
I'm just getting done waiting for the sickness to take me away
And I'll fight it, I don't need no more, when I already got it
[Verse 2]
Controlled like a voodoo doll, life's sticking pins in me
Cursed, I deserve it, I don't want your sympathy
No going back, I can't do no sh*t differently
Can't help but laugh, what the hell's gotten into me?
My imperfections, twisted obsessions
Manic depression, thousands of questions
Sad adolescence, bad first impressions
Big disconnections, valuable lessons
Why do I constantly have to start over?
For once in my life, can I finally have closure?
For once in my life, can I keep my composure?
I stay f*cking up and I never stay sober
Was I always meant to be just mediocre?
At this rate I'm finished, I’ll never get older
Internal fight with myself, I’m bipolar
I walk a fine line between chaos and order
[Chorus]
I'm just getting done waiting for the sickness to take me away
And I'll fight it, I don't need no more, when I already got it
[Verse 3]
I'm throwing up words
Cuz I can't stomach the things that I'm thinking and feeling
Don't wanna reveal all the secrets I'm keeping
But if I don't do this, my heart won't start beating
Pills put me to sleep but they made me stop dreaming
Defeated, I’m weak in a war without reason
I'm blind when I drink, I don't know what I'm seeing
I'm right on the brink on the edge, I’ve been feening
[Pre-Chorus]
I make the room spin
By now, I'm used to it's sickening movement
It's an illusion
It's a reminder that my time is looming
Hardly a human
I'm just a vessel, the chemicals use me
It's so confusing
Did I choose them? I don't know, did they choose me?
[Chorus]
I'm just getting done waiting for the sickness to take me away
And I'll fight it, I don't need no more, when I already got it
[Outro]
DempseyRollBoy
In a world of my own
Yeah
Lyrics Submitted by Jeremiah