Smothered Lyrics

The black and cold reminds me
Of all the distance we have crossed
And if your darkness blinds me
I could never be more lostBut I'm not the one who seeks your protection
I'm not the one to share the disguise
And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection
I'm not the one to tear the same way twiceYou push from the inside, smothered
You push from the inside out, smotheredHave all your walls surround me
They're closing in they block my sight
The violence around me
Found me when I could not fightBut I'm not the one to take your direction
I'm not the one who wears the disguise
And I'm not the one to share your reflection
I'm not the one you break the same way twiceI will never win
I will never win with youI read you
I fear you round up no more than you know
I hate you
I still do every time you let me go