Stalemate Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
If I fail, if I fall
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the sameWhere do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the sameGot a lot, a lot of excuses
Nothing better than a homemade lie
New rules and old confusion
The ones you just despiseOut of my way, out of my reach
Out of your dream, if you still can't sleep
My mind is a terrible gift

And I'd rather be numb than feel this wayCome home with the medal, it's broken
Another fake that's another mistake
Just once, when the moment is golden
I will leave this cleanIf I fail, if I fall
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the sameWhere do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the sameHalf my time and one protection
This is better than a bigger stand
New shoes in old directions
The epitaph of manKilling my name, killing my past
Nothing's left when nothing lasts
My life is a terrible waste
And I'm going down fastIf I fail, if I fall
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the sameWhere do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the sameOh, don't be so distracted
I can tell you where the story ends
New sins and old abuses
And no one wins againThis is my chance, this is my curse
We all know it'll only get worse
My hell is a terrible case
But I'll give you all hell firstIf I fail, if I fall
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the sameIf I still, if I stole
if I can be hurt I would never even go
The more I fight, I stay the sameWhere do I go, and what do I do?
The very thought scares the hell out of you
The more I fight, I stay the sameIf I fail, if I fall
If I know if I care at all
The more I fight, I stay the same