The Diary Lyrics

Advisory - the following lyrics contain explicit language:
Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeI fuckin' swear that I care but its hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare
Oh, my desolate soul in my desolate home
It's my desolate role, yeah I'm here all aloneI can't think of a reason to get the fuck out of bed

Curtains closed, lights are off, am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week, I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at its peak, another fit just to sleepOh, woe is me, woe is me, I guess I need love
Hoes you see, hoes you see I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin baby, please baby don't leave
Goddamn I'm a fuck up but I guess that's just meSo I sit in my room and I'll cry in my bed
Thinkin about all the shit that made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin to climb but it seems so steep
Pour myself a fuckin' whisky and go back to sleep bitchCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeI watch my momma cry, she says baby why?
I say baby died, baby's gone like a suicide
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom stay out my room mom
Tell daddy that I hate that motherfucker like you momI sing this shit for you Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These tears keep getting warmer every time that I hold her
I pour this out for you like a partner in crime
It's part of the times when you're sick in the mindYeah, I'm sick oh so sick, I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah, I'm lit oh so lit, I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around til I stumble, fall down
To this puddle of my tears layin here on the groundWhen you've got nothing left, you've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man, you better bury me deep
And sing along to this song 'cause you're broken like meCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long, now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeAnd I wanna go back to the start, back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all alongAnd I wanna go back to the start, back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong all alongCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go homeCause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin these streets for too long now
I've got nothin thats true but this song now
But the further I go I wanna go home