Under Saturn's Shadow Lyrics

Here I sit and wait throughout my days
Waiting for something, for my spirit to ascend
It's not that I so badly want to die
But at these times i struggle for desire to liveEach day it grows worse than the last
Function divorced from my body
As Saturn's Shadow falls across my soul
I'm powerless, until it's passedAnd I'm trying, I'm trying to find a way
Out of the blackness of this tunnel at the end of the light
And I'm dreaming forever of the day
Dreaming of a time when life won't be this wayWebs invisible blind my spirit
In bondage to a force unseen
Like a candle, this gift my life
It burns away, it burns awayUntil night's end sleep will not come to me
Then come restless, fitful dreams
Eternal slumber calls me to her arms
After I'm dead, will I still dream?Sometimes I dream that I'm alive
Under the stars, under the sky
Then I awaken paralyzed to another day I cannot face

And I'm trying, I'm trying to find a way
Out of the blackness of this tunnel at the end of the light
And I'm dreaming forever of the day
Dreaming of a time when life won't be this way