Bars for My Brother Lyrics

Introduction
So many regrets
So many unanswered questions
I miss you
Miss you so much
Listen, yeah
Yo, yo, yo, yoI hope you're somewhere listening to this
(And) I wish I knew why you did what you did
'Cause I still haven't really come to terms with the truth
There must have been something you were determined to prove
The lessons you taught me, I can't forget 'em
But there's so many unanswered questions
Now everything seems meaningless
You lived fast and died young
But my brother you were a genius
How could you ever believe that you'd survive?
I don't care what they say, that shit was suicide
I won't lie, there was much distance between you and I

I should've told you not to do it, don't be stupid (why?)
You've got looks, got brains and your future's bright
Now you're gone I feel like I'm gonna lose my mind
I never thought you'd get yourself organised
I wish we saw the signs, the shock left us all traumatised
These are awful times, and I need more than rhymes
'Cause this was more than a tragedy
You can't just cheat the forces of gravity
You left me here to hold a brave face, supporting the family
In a way you were dying to live
It's fucked up man, I'm crying while I'm writing this shit
Water from my eyes' stopping me from lighting my spliff
Why didn't you realise that your life was a gift?
Mum and dad don't understand why they've outlived their son
Every single C.D., mixtape and album to come
Is dedicated to none other than my blood brother
But I hate you, for the way you made my Mum suffer
Words can't explain, how a certain part of my heart hurts with the harshest pain
Last time we spoke, we said we weren't brothers and we aren't the same
I told myself you were too far past insane
How could we not take your death badly?
I just asked mum and she said your name meant 'happy'
But my soul's too cold to laugh
My heart bleeds when I'm looking at your old school photograph
I wish that I could touch your beautiful flesh
I'm writing but we ain't even had the funeral yet
Now death is something, that I'm staying ever ready for
You had plenty more to give, you weren't even twenty-four
I don't understand why you had to die
In a lot of rappers rhymes, death is glamorised
Not me, I'll always stay remembering you
We should've known this was something you'd eventually do
When you got shift, we should've known it was bad
The next day I was sitting here consoling my Dad
It's like a nightmare, it still doesn't seem real
But this is my life, not some fuckin' deep film
It's just a strange feeling I felt in the late night
Witnesses said that you fell from a great height
Can't be my brother man, tell me it ain't right
Right now I'd rather blaze, weed than face life
Shit what a waste, what a shame
I just gotta make sure your life wasn't lost in vain
This is my brother, not just a departed friend
So hard for my marge and them to start again
From now on our lives will never be the same
We're holding on too tight for the memories to fade
Twenty-four years was hardly a life
On the day you passed, it's like a part of me died
I've been scarred many times but this pain is so much worse
And it's so much harder to describe
You will be sorely missed
I'm sorry we didn't support you, we thought we did
I wish I broke your leg so you couldn't jump
Now all I can do...is rep your fuckin' name like I should've done
'Cause it's only right
I'm still not sleeping, but now I'm seeing your ghost at night
We all wish we could've stopped you
I know I can't go back in time now, but I want to
It's like a tightened knot that I can't undo
Why did I have to lose you to realise I loved you?
Be careful what you wish for, in case it comes true
Right now I'm confused, feeling so subdued
When they arrested you, they wanted to section you
The only thing we did wrong was going and getting you
Next morning you was up, not doing what you was meant to do
That wasn't the life that you were meant to have
That wasn't the way that it was meant to be
You were sick, not physically but mentally
I still ain't got a fraction of this shit off of my chest
All that goes through my mind is the constant regret
Why, why, why did you die for no reason?
All of a sudden the weathers cold it's so freezin'
Have you ever heard the saying, when it rains it pours?
Don't ever try to tell me my pain is the same as yours
'Cause it's not, and everything isn't what it seems
I'm pinching myself but I know that this is not a dream
Why did you have to do that? it isn't fair
Listen my brother, never think that I didn't care
There's no words to describe the way that this feels
Now I can clearly separate the fake from the real
Why did everyone else have to be wrong?
I still can't quite believe that you're actually gone
Just five days, five days and it feels like the same day
Weed ain't helpin' but I need it just to maintain
'Cause the bleak reality is terrible
And last night mum was practically hysterical
People I thought would care, couldn't care less
I need a lot of support 'cause I'm feeling bare stressed
And everybody else seems immature
I'm being tested, thinking what is there left that I'm living for
I need to clear my thoughts, stop thinking and try and breathe
Just a week ago I was so innocent and naive
Now my insides are burning like hells flames
I've realised up until now I've never felt pain
It's so evident that everything I cared about before was so irrelevant
There's certain people that call when they see that this shit is hurtin'
But I see them for what they are now 'cause I'm a different person (I'm a different person)
I'm a different person (I'm a different person, I'm a different person)Talking:
S.D.
R.I.P. (I miss you)
In fact fuck R.I.P
I want you to live through me,
S.D.
L.T.M.
Live through me
Live through me
Live...through...me...