It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills, I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family, said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me, just lately
I've been feeling like I don't belong
Like the ground is not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank by herself
And I sat watching a flower as it was withering
I was embarrassed by it's honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck, that's taken it's place
So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
'Cause we all get tired I mean eventually
And there's nothing left to do but sleep
But spring came bearing sunlight, those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said, "Of course it's your decision but just so you know
If you decide to leave, soon I will follow”
I wrote this for a baby who has yet to be born
My brother's first child, I hope that womb's not too warm
'Cause it's cold out here and it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air, to discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes before you arrive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies, just love, just love
I will be pure, no, no, I know I will be pure
Like snow, like gold, like snow, like gold