Open Face Surgery Lyrics

I've learned to control my thoughts
ever since I recognized the first eavesdropper:
those who listen in on my thoughts,
my logic, my sanityI cannot let them know I don't know
the verses, or converse in my head:
lash out at future foes,
banter with friends I've not yet metThe psychoaggressive minions of
your lord mock with laugher I can't hear,
with hidden scowls they admonish meNothing's sacred, Nothing's safe:
your filthy god is omnipresent,
this undying nonentity that haunts
my every waking dreamThey watch me, his mortal flock,
they know me now by sight alone:
my thoughts are too well concealed...
Yet I sense more scrutinyFleeting lucidity's too loud for me,
let me be my silent self:
our existences irreconciledMake them stop! I'm rotting fast...
The answer, painful though it may be,

is changeAlter my outer shell...
The listener's may not, then, know it's me
Open Face Surgery: short of pain
and long on masquerade
Ounce by ounce, lose a little weight
nip here, tuck there... So who needs eyelids?