Phobophobia Lyrics

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Restricted patient
Or so they say
I choose to stay here, phobic fears
Nerve endings eaten awayI'm out of touch
With all in sight
Don't close my eyes
I fear that death will come collecting tonightDistracted ruins
Oh can't you see?
I'm nervous, frightened, tormented by everythingYou'll never know
Just what it's like

You can't imagine
What's disturbing, what is eating my mindIn constant paranoia
Keeps me looking over my shoulder
I'm hiding 'til the fear is over
Running down the street
I'll never look to see just what it might be
That I fear so much in my life
Or in my deathDoctor, help me
At any cost
Please make it go away before I am totally lostInside a shell and locked away
No fear can touch me
When I scream, none can hear what I sayBut is it gone, or did it stay?
My phobophobic thoughts
God, will they ever go away?And leave me be, I doubt they will
The disease of fear has got me
And it's in for the killThe fracture of my mind
It will destroy me slowly
In the end, I lay there breathless
Six feet under, dirt will cover
The headstone reads
"His was a frantic mind, less human being
Destroyed by fear of everything that could be"I've witnessed fear
For all it's worth
I can't imagine someone causing its own birthThe human hell
Or so we say
But is it fear the only thing that we are prey?In life, not death
Define to me
A state of coldness life where I can be freeOf mortal choice
Burden of life
A questioned fate of fear or am I to die?I've seen now some of what I've done done
A disease now once deliveredOn those poor souls I pressure on
Unearthly cold they shiverInsertion of fear a blood lacing tear
I draw from cowards breakingPsychiatrists I tie in knots
This mind in fear is taken